today was rather interesting. woke up around 4pm. took the lrt down to kl with sarah, sy, mode and annie. we just shopped around. i got me some new earings and a nice shirt from topshop which cost me a bomb but i like it. so yeah. had lunch in kfc. they made me eat a lot because all of them said i was getting skinnier. yeah yeah, im bulimic! hehehe.

we reached home around 9pm. i fell asleep straight away after lying down on my bed. i dont know why i was so beat. while i was sleeping, sarah and sy finished the puzzle. its not fair!! hahahah i did a lot this morning before leaving for kl. i really wanted to put the last piece in but its a group effort! its all worth it!! yeahhh!!

so tonight is rather boring. its only 12.50am and i have nothing to do. even the tv sucks. i mean, its a saturday night, there should be some nice shit on but nooooo ... they rather show some stupid shows. pfft.

feeling rather down though. i dont know why but i do. when i woke up from my nap, i was like finding someone on the other side of the bed. someone to hug. but unfortunately there was no one at all. just emptiness. i need to be loved. i need love. i just want to be loved. thats all. everything else can come along by itself. sigh. i just hate me.

rick.